My mother has the most amazing singing voice I've ever heard in my life. I'm not saying this because she is my mother, if you are an avid follower of my blog, you know I keep it extremely real. She has one of those voices that makes you cry. It doesn't matter what song she is singing, when she puts her heart into her voice, she pulls your's out of you. You are reminded of the feeling you had at the most beautiful, happiest, most wonderful time in your life, and it is magnified by a bazillion. Her voice gives Jesus goosebumps.. I'm not kidding.. He told me himself... But the only problem is that she is extremely closed minded and set in her ways, and even though she has the voice of 1000 baby angels... She's not a performer, she doesn't cater to her audience because she's never had to, had the desire to, nor has she been put in the position to. This bothers me. My mother has the ability and the voice to change the world, all she lacks is the mindset and spirit. Her drive was killed by childbirth, responsibilities, and failed attempts. Judges and people in "The industry" are only looking for young tenders, hoes, victims, and weirdo's... My mother is as cliche' as you can get, all the way down to her singing style. Her voice is all but that though. One of my biggest fears is that she will lose her abilities before she is able to see her full potential. I want to change how she views music, performers, and life as a person who does both of these things for a living. It's her turn to live. She's tried to live vicariously through me and that was another one of those failed attempts due to the fact that when it mattered most to her, I didn't love myself enough to see my full potential and use it to my advantage. I was busy trying to be everyone else. I never accepted myself until I accepted that I would never be accepted, and I never knew that this long journey on the road to getting to know myself was hurting her until now. My BIGGEST dream is to share a stage with her, in front of hundreds of thousands of people, me on drums and her on the microphone, someone on keys, a symphony in the background, horns and a bass guitarist following our lead, and me and my mother improvise the greatest solo ever recorded. We comp each other in ways that only a bond as strong as ours could accomplish, we connect and flow supernaturally, like music was never truly music until we decided it was that night... Sigh... I need help making this dream come true. I really do... I really really do... Or at least an idea... I'm not the type to give up on my dreams at all, this WILL happen. PERIOD!! As long as we are alive and have the ability to play, we have time to do it. I will figure this out if It's the last thing I do. I mean this more than anything I've ever said on this blog. This is my number one dream.
2 comments:
You should try small first. Karaoke, open mics. You'd be surprised, but those lead to actual gigs. Tape her, even if it's a snippet and put it on YouTube. She probably needs to be around other musical people, to be inspired and lead. I can relate. My mom sings too. She's recorded and often travels and sings around town. It can happen for your mom, don't forget to pray about it!
I agree with M.C. Some small may help bring her out of her shell because until she sees herself doing this, in her mind there's no point. Start small and once she gets comfortable then you can possible record her and let her hear herself. Little by little. I hope that helps.
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