Mind Splurge Episode 2: Family Mental MIND-FUCK!!!

Its crazy that the people that love me the most, indirectly affect me negatively more than anyone else. I can care less about what people that I don't know think of me, but with my "household" family, I feel that all my faults, flaws, imperfections, and insecurities are clearly displayed to them like a clean window with a clear, and vivid view of my soul. With them, sometimes, I feel that no matter where I go or what I do, whatever I touch will fail. It makes me not want to attempt to do things because in my past I have failed at things and excelled in others yet my achievements went WAY more unnoticed than my set backs. To me they kind of feel like a bully or a kid that I lost a fight to in the third grade and when I started a new life and became successful and happy, I see them at a party or something and its that awkward urge to have to prove myself because they know that ONE button to press to unnerve my vigor and show other people that all is not what it seems with me because of who I USED to be. I really don't know what to do about it though because I cant change my past. To make them proud is one of the biggest things in my list of my life's priorities but I really have no idea of how I'm going to achieve that when they are so critical of the things that I do. My life's path is so structured and laid out to them that if I stray at all from what they want me to be then (in my eyes) in their eyes I will be considered a failed child, even if in the future I achieve what I feel is my definition of success. This is a tough situation but I gotta figure it out or stop caring and Ive never been a quitter so...